Now that our fundraising events are over, the question we keep getting is “What’s next?”
And I completely understand the sentiment. I’m a planner and always like to have a game plan for “what’s next.”
But other than writing a about a hundred “Thank-you” cards, the next thing to do is really just to wait.
(Anyone know a scribe-for-hire? It’s amazing to know that SO many have contributed to our Adoption Fund!)
To wait… one thing I ought to be good at by now, but am not.
Compared to the wait for Elise, this has been a piece of cake. But I’m still always anxious to hear any news from our agency of a birth-mom wanting to make an adoption plan. Any news that could be the first contact that leads to our baby.
Tyler and I were talking whilst washing dishes together last week. It was just after we had put our names in for a birthmom’s consideration. I was expressing my excitement that we finally had a chance – albeit a small one – to be chosen. From January to April the agency had 3-4 birthmoms a month looking for parents for their babies. But since we were approved on May 5, there have only been 2 opportunities for us to be considered. And the first one was twins, which we didn’t put in for.
Needless to say, I’ve been a bit anxious. Waiting just isn’t easy for me.
But Tyler couldn’t relate. He’s excited for our next baby, but his emotion doesn’t wax or wane.
Why couldn’t we ever be on the same page? It’s not like I’m looking for him to cry with me through sad dog-movies. Or sad dog-movie previews. Or sad dog-commercials.
Then he said something that reminded me of why I love him, “I actually don’t mind waiting. It means there’s nothing for us to do. Just to wait for God to take care of it for us.”
My soapy hands paused from scrubbing for a second as his words sunk in. I had been looking for him to connect with me, to draw him into my emotions. Instead, I was drawn to his: steady joy in trusting the Lord to work for us.
So what’s next for us? Well… just waiting. But waiting doesn’t mean nothing is happening or that our purpose in life is somehow immobilized. Just that God is the One in control.
And there’s no one better to trust our lives with.
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14